I’m sitting here at work, the day after the 4th of July, and I’m pondering a few things. I hate when that happens as it doesn’t happen often. But here I sit in my office at the college with absolutely nothing going on but our usual rain soaking. Nothing is going on because we are normally closed on Fridays during the summer months and since the 4th fell on Wednesday this year just about everyone took today off (silly me). So here I sit, drinking my green tea and reading blog after blog. And pondering. Pondering is an actual word meaning, among other things, to “chew over, think over, meditate, excogitate, contemplate, muse, reflect, mull, mull over, ruminate, or speculate.” The root word, as far as I can tell, was probably taken from Ponder Texas, which isn’t that far from here and has a population of 507. With a population that small I’m guessing there’s not that much to do but ruminate. I always thought that ruminate was something Captain Jack Sparrow would do quite often after a night of frolic and rum, but it’s not – it means to ponder.
One of the things I’ve been reflecting on is how my spirituality, my faith and what I believe, is so greatly influenced and shaped by my White Anglo Saxton Protestant background, the old WASP factor. And dare I add Middle Class and Male, but by doing so screws with the WASP acronym. A lot of what I’m looking for in a new church is founded on my Middle Class culture, and how I would expect my white middle class Jesus to live out HIS faith. I can’t really relate to the poor and down-trodden because I’ve never really been poor or down-trodden (unless you count the fact that I can’t afford the new iPhone or the now not so new Wii). I can’t relate to other ethnic cultures because, well, I’m a WASP. And everyone knows we all worship together. Growing up in the Panhandle of Texas we had “the other side of the tracks” mentality, or “colored town,” and that kind of thing stays with you for a long time and is reflected in my “spirituality.” Even the paintings hanging on the walls of the church tells me Jesus was blond and blue-eyed.
Another thing I’ve been mulling over is the excess of life. Not life in general, but in my own life and by connection the WASP churches we’ve been going to. We make a nice living with our two jobs, but we have excess to the point of struggling from payday to payday, and we are just not willing, or motivated, to do something about it. Like sell the house, pay off everything, and live in a nice but not fancy place. We like our yard, two-car garage, three bedrooms, big trees and nice, quiet neighborhood (a WASPy one at that).
Being the day after the 4th of July, another thing I’ve been contemplating is my patriotism, or lack of it. It’s not that I’m not proud to be an American, I am. But America, if you are really honest, has changed a lot in the 231 years since the Declaration of Independence was penned. There are some good things, and some not so good things. You would think, after this long a time, that everyone would be “created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.” Of course, our founding fathers, WASPs in their own right, declared, “We hold these truths to be self-evident.” Self-evident. Sort of like, “Well, duh.” We have become a society of excess, and distrust, and division. It’s “us” against “them,” even though we’re not clear who US, or THEM are.
Ok, enough pondering. These are just some of the things rattling around on this rainy, quiet day. I’d like to leave you with a video from Rob Bell, just for something to ponder.
Nooma – RICH
[HT: Shaun Groves ]
B~
July 6, 2007 at 5:39 am
I think you and I think alike. These things bother me too and I think about them a lot and wonder if the Christianity I’ve been taught is the real deal or if it’s been so watered down by the influence of society that it lacks any real power to make a difference in anyone’s life.
I watched the video. Disturbing isn’t it.. I wonder how much money Americans burn up on the 4th of July every year? I don’t think I really want to know.
July 6, 2007 at 6:10 am
Great post, I agree that it seems the power is gone for a lot of churches. We have somehow in our pursuit of feeling good about our church lost sight of the fact that the church wasn’t pretty when it began. It was powerful, not pretty. I long for the church today to tap into that power that is so readily available again. I’d love you to come by my blog sometime; I would welcome your comments. I am a young, new Sr. Pastor that could use this type of insight. http://www.pastorandrew.wordpress.com Thanks again for the great post.
July 6, 2007 at 6:29 am
Wow. I was thinking “what should I have for dinner tonight?” when I opened your post. I understanding the whole pondering issue, I’m a big time ponderer on the same topics. The question I asked myself earlier today (as I contemplated going back to work for a ministry that I don’t really stand behind all that much) is: wait, this could take a whole blog post. I’m just gonna do it on my blog. Thanks, Bruce, for sharing your ponderings with us.
July 6, 2007 at 7:14 pm
One of the questions of life is what will motivate us to do something about that 92% that don’t drive cars and those millions of children dying of starvation. Rob Bell seems to think that guilt will motivate us … and maybe it will motivate some.
I really don’t have any answers but I wonder if Solomon understood some of it when he wrote in Ecclesiastes:
“If you see oppression of the poor and denial of justice and righteousness in the province, do not be shocked at the sight; for one official watches over another official, and there are higher officials over them.”
The facts of most of the poverty in the world is that greedy and power hungry ‘officials’ have sold their countrymen down the river. Often our goodwill donations are sometimes hijacked by these ‘officials’. So, knowing how to truly help can be a difficult proposition.
I think that people who pray regularly for these issues are more in tune with them and open to avenues of action. Sadly, I don’t pray regularly for those millions of people. Thanks for reminding me to pray Bruce … maybe if we hear the message often enough we will pray.
Blessings, Bob
July 6, 2007 at 7:35 pm
Yeah, Bob, you make some very good points. I’m not expecting us to do anything about the poverty of others, I’m not sure we can. What I think the point Rob is making, and even the point I’m making to some extent, is that we need to be made aware of our OWN excesses. We are a blessed nation – we don’t have the ‘officials’ that sell us down the river – well, at least not to the extent of a lot of other countries. Jesus even said the poor will always be with us. Perhaps, though, there are some changes we can make in our own little part of the world. I’m not advocating selling all and giving everything to the poor – I’m advocating the wise use of the money we have been entrusted with.
As always, I appreciate everyone’s input.
B~
July 6, 2007 at 8:33 pm
Maybe part of that wise use of money is just saying no to credit. I haven’t heard a mesage, or read a blog, on the evil of credit in a long time.
July 7, 2007 at 2:51 am
ditto on pretty much all that, bruce.
July 10, 2007 at 5:42 am
Great ponderings….I too have wondered how “wrong” we have it in our churches today…I look at our SBC leaders and hear their dogmatic view that they have it all “right” and wonder how much of it we really do have “right”….and talk about WASPY….Southern Baptists are WASPY To the extreme….
Perspective is hard to manage…we tend to get it all out of whack…Rob’s video is a good rebalancer…
July 21, 2007 at 8:23 pm
good thoughts, good vid of Rob Bell. i love that guy.
thanks for this.
July 27, 2007 at 9:37 pm
OK, bruce… here i am again… did you see the post on Jesus Creed about Denmark, no poverty and the church “out of business”? I wonder if our guilt over our wealth is just one more way we excuse our “guilt”… hmmmm, something to ponder.
I was watching Rob’s vid… very well done by the way… and did a little pondering on the vid, not what was said (i can get that same messge and have many times over the past 30 or 40 years that such a message would even maean anything to me) but the means of the message… I wonder… how many wells could have been dug to provide fresh water for some of those millions Rob mentioned if his org had spent the money for all the tech it took to produce that vid on wells instead of the equipment to produce the vid
I love your blog, man… keep up the pondering… it helps me think!